The Self in a Social World

L. I am but a can of tanned skin, black-brown hair, intimidating eyes, relatively normal features, and limbs and extremities of regular length stuck onto a body of less than number height with a slight tummy to match. I have never seen myself as physic all(prenominal)y fit, exactly, nor do I see myself as some wizard head-turning gorgeous akin a draw play of my friends ar. There are a lot of things about me that I compliments to desperately change in a physical sense, because very, I am nonhing above regular. Regular toughness swings are a norm for me, hormonal imbalance or n genius, though I ant assign Im emotionally unst open.You might regularise Im sensitive Im slow touched, good ticked bump off, easily pleased, easily hurt. I tend to be intense and extreme with my emotions, and actually vocal about it too. Without a venting outlet, my emotions may be easily displaced. My mood is often dangerous and difficult to control, like wildfire. Some clippings, I forecas t of myself as a mirror how I behave depends on the plurality Im with. If hes the shy type, Im the shy type. If shes bubbly and talkative, then thats me as well. The entirely time this doesnt work is when the person Im with is a loud and obnoxious ass.Normally when there are plenty of heap I dont issue, be it walking around the semblance complex or sitting in a classroom near of people I dont know, Im very guarded and conscious of my actions, making me get word cold and quiet sometimes. This stems from my intense cultism of public embarrassment, I hypothecate. unless once Vie settled in a brusk niche, curiously with the people who are close to me, the loud, wild and sometimes shameless little monster inside of me comes out with a vengeance. He. Im not exactly a socially-awkward person, nor am I totally socially-adept.Im either mainstream nor hipster, trendsetter nor wallflower either. Truth is, Im really just somewhere in between all that. And I like where I am. Im not t he type to be easily swayed by recentborn trends, habits, practices and opinions, sans political opinions because I am so pathetically apathetic on those matters. Only in recent years have I begun to be as friendly and cordial as I can to new people I meet. I often try to keep my mood and behavior in check when Im with my friends as well, because even though they know about it, I dont want to show them the ugly side of me that I barely how myself.Now, even if I didnt graduate as the class valedictorian and simply made it with a humble Honorable Mention medal, that hasnt stop me from thinking of myself as fairly smart. I have intelligent parents and relatives and I think thats influenced me plenty. I do read and write a lot. I pick up a lot of things from books and movies and my father to be able to do those well, so such(prenominal) that I was able to conquer my fear of public speaking. Although it doesnt apply all the time, I do pick up on things rather easily, making schoolwo rk lighter for me than most of my friends think so.Still, I dont think that highly of myself in this matter. I am not special, and again, nought above typical. II. Physical 1 . ) Physically fit 3. ) cute 4. ) Has dimples Emotional 1 . ) Emotionally stable 2. ) Intense with her feelings 3. ) Short-tempered 4. ) painful 5. ) Happy-go-lucky Behavioral 1 Careful 2. ) Competitive 3. ) Energetic 4. ) Perfectionist affable 1 Friendly 2. ) Sociable 3. ) May come off as intimidating and difficult to approach Cognitive 1 . Above average 2. ) Intelligent 3. ) Witty 4. ) Competitive Ill.For the Physical aspect of the conform to, to everything aside from the typical average height, brown shoulder-length hair, I say WHAT? I was honestly laughing at the number of people who responded with physically fit and sexy, because not only is one of them awkward to read, I also dont find the an some other(prenominal) one true at all. I of all time berate myself for my thighs and my arms and my vente r that seem to be growing a hundred miles per hour. The responses in the survey make me think one of two things 1 . Maybe its all in my head after all or 2. Theyre Just verbal expression that because they dont want to make me feel bad. And to be honest, the second one seems a lot more plausible to me. Because, really, I cant see this body as physically fit at all. Other than that, almost everything else I read off the survey answers were pretty much things Im aware of or I already knew about myself. It makes me think how transparent I really am of a person, even to people I havent been friends with for over a year. This fact assures me somehow, and I seem to take it as a good thing.Since Vie always hated people who are fake and plastic, two-faced people who only care about looking good in front of other people, its good to know that people are seeing me as I really am, even the rough spots and the dark sides, and that Im not one of those people I absolutely loathe. Its nice to know I havent entirely turned into the person I swore Id never become. Youd probably expect me to say something like This survey activity has opened my eyes and inspired me to change, and so on but no, thats the exact opposite of what Vie realized.I realized that theres really nothing to change after all. I already like everything myself, my short-temperateness, my faux fixed demeanor, and even my that. Lastly, I thank my friends who responded honestly to this survey. I got to see how other people saw me, something Vie always been curious about, and I learned, found on how fast I ran out of survey forms, how many people I actually consider as friends who also see me the same way. Also, based on the fact that Im still friends with these people, I realized how much theyve accepted me, despite all my shortcomings as a person and as a friend.